November 29th, 2025

So, we had a realization today. Multiple, actually, so I'll save the main one for last.

Firstly, Sam told us today that it upsets him when we don't tell her who is fronting. Not in a "I demand to know this information" way, but... they said that it wigs them out a bit when they can obviously tell Thera is fronting but Thera is trying to pretend to be me. I left a note for Thera about it... I don't want to wig out Sam like that. We'll try to be better about it in the future. I was really happy that she communicated with me about it.

Secondly, we think we figured out why Rayanna is here. It seems that apparently, fae split off as a result of the whole Eloise situation, which... makes a lot of sense. I told Sam about it and she said she wasn't surprised at all, she was actually surprised (before Rayanna was discovered) that no one had. Haaah... Yeah I guess it was pretty stressful. I started feeling like a seperate person when I interacted with her, someone who wasn't who I was around my friends, and I suppose that resulted in a split: Rayanna, who dealt with that, who was willing to deal with her. Mm... Maybe that's why it happened. None of us wanted to talk with them towards the end, so Rayanna did.

Pretty wild realization. I'm slowly coming to terms with who was split by what, you know? I'm just... Mm. A little upset that the whole situation led to a split, you know? But I won't get into that.

I think the web I understand now is... Previous Host --> Nick/Cas --> Rayanna splits from Nick...? Maybe? Is that how it works? I still don't know how any of this does, haha, I'm learning. I do know though that Rayanna is like hella trying to merge with my character Faron right now, in an introject way, so that's... interesting. I can feel that happening and it's kind of wild. I guess I'll just see where that goes?